Hey, over the past couple months since around January my parents have
divorced and my sister is having alot of problems with friends and
school and has depression and really cannot control herself anymore. I
dont know her at all i havent actaully talked to her in a bout a month
or so and i dont want to. Shes the reason my parents divorced and has
ruined the last couple years because how she acts. That really doesnt
bother to much there divorced but i know its her fualt. Ive become to
the point were im not really into hanging out with friends and i just
like to be left alone. My parents just piss me off because off they
annoy me so much. My dad is not as bad though. Honestly i think about
suicide every single day but not sure i could really ever do it. I
would not say im socaily awkward but that i am just extremely
extremely quiet in groups of people. I can talk to girls and guys
fine. Girls really dont even make me happy anymore like i dont have
problems getting them really.. people always tell me i look sad and
wonder why i skip certain events. I am a beast a lax so i am told :D
and i am very good. I also play guitar i would say pretty freakin
good. I love head banging and jumping around to breakdown metal like
motionless in white. I dont dress "emo" but i like to wear band shirts
and such. im getting more towards that look this summer. Anyways my
friends dont rlly get that side of me.. I only listen to post core and
metal along with some waka and wiz.. I feel angry at everyone in my
family and i hate doing things with them. With friends im so quiet im
not even noticed. I want help to feel happy im so angry sad and mad at
everyone. im not seeing some doctor person either so dont tell me. Ill
do this own my own so any tips or stuff you can tell me shankkkkk
youuu :] - Josh :D
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